There were times throughout the last couple of years that I seemingly had what I thought was a rough patch. Everything that I wanted didn’t turn out how I wanted it — from school, not being able to concentrate or focus on getting through the semester with a passing grade to being unhappy on almost every job that I worked. I didn’t get it; nothing was falling in place. I even had writer’s block for what felt like months. My creative juices weren’t flowing, and I had just mentally checked out.

This “rough patch” gladly made it’s way over into my personal life. My anxiety was always on ten, and it felt like I was having multiple episodes throughout my day. Having these numerous episodes sometimes left me upset and even depressed. All I kept asking was, “How did I get here?”
Love was even off the radar as well. All I could hear was God saying, “Aht Aht,” and I just ignored him. Red flags and all I was just out here wilding.

Needless to say, this left me in a very dark space. I wasn’t sure how or if I would recover from this. Even though I have always stood firm in my faith, I felt this wasn’t connected to my spiritual side. This black space I was in was 100% about me! It was about me digging deep within me to get something out that would take more than prayer.

Slowly but surely, things began to turn around. Job offers from every angle, people that I prayed and asked God to remove slowly vanishing, I was even waking up in better spirits

After talking to my best friend, she planted a few seeds, the power of the tongue, manifestation, and daily positive affirmations. I knew that all three of these would take a substantial attempt of self-motivation and lawd I didn’t have it in me at this time. But, here goes nothing. So I burned my sage, mediated daily, got on my knees until they ached, and made sure to say my affirmations until tears spewed from my eyes. I spoke positivity and greatness over myself and made sure the power I held within my tongue was nothing but GREATNESS and ROYALTY.

Slowly but surely, things began to turn around. Job offers from every angle, people that I prayed and asked God to remove slowly vanishing, I was even waking up in better spirits. Not to mention everything that I spoke or positively spoke about came to the past. School was going great, I was on the Dean’s list every quarter, and nothing seemed to spark my anxiety. I was thoroughly excited, I was coming out of a dark space, and everything was looking up even my personal life. See, that was the most challenging area because I always seem to ignore those red flags. But this time around, instead of just cutting people off and kicking them to the curb, I manifested exactly what I wanted in my next mate.

I spoke of things that I deserved and how I wanted to be loved and respected. I meditated and aligned my energy until it became second nature. My lifestyle changed, and I felt better and better every day. I was thankful and humbled. My connection was deepened enough that I could make changes all across the board. Talk about being proud of yourself.

So I burned my sage, mediated daily, got on my knees until they ached, and made sure to say my affirmations until tears spewed from my eyes.

I now understand how I was failing myself before. Allowing others to dwell in my space rent-free, take over my energy, and, most importantly, prevent me from being the best me I could be!
Well, now, I realize the power that I have is within myself, and I no longer give anyone the ability to steal my peace or state of mind.

I did this, and I manifested my life and turned it around. It was deeper than prayer; it was more profound than cutting people off or just ghosting them, and for all of this, I’m forever grateful.

The best is yet to come because I manifested my future!